I felt like dying yesterday. I came to the library at 8 pm to study and finish up all my homework cuz I have a quiz and homework for my intermediate accounting class and an exam for my tax accounting. One after another. So I started by reading the tax accounting text.. I read some over the past few days.. so I didn't spend a lot of time yesterday. While I was just finishing the reading, my friend came online.. and since she doesn't come online a lot, I talked to her... until 11 pm when she went offline.
After 11 is when I started to feel the burden building up on me. I still had 3 homework questions (1 question takes up like 2 pages.. so it takes a lot of time to do it) and the quiz to study for.. at the same time, I soo wasn't ready for the exam yet. What can I do? Stomach growling too.. and have to work at freakin' 8 am till right before class.
Anyhow, I went to eat with two of my friends.. to satisfy my stomach first. Done eating and chatting at 1 am. Went to our own homes.. and I did the homework.. surprisingly, I can finish it by 2.45 am. I thought I wasn't gonna sleep yesterday. Today turned out to be better than what I expected.. I was expecting myself to be like a walking zombie today but I am actually more alive than that! The tests weren't too bad I hope.. we'll see the results.
Yeah, anyways, we talked about our problems while we were eating.. and our common fear was our future. I can't forecast my future.. we always joke that we have no future.. maybe that's true. I really have no idea what to do with the rest of my life. I mean, I am not so worried about being able to live through life.. you know like being able to finance your own life and stuff. I hope I won't have so much trouble in that. The problem though is, what's the meaning of my life if everyday all I do is work, work, save, and spend? It's like there is no ultimate goal.. nothing to look forward to. Does anyone ever feel the same way too?
I felt like dying yesterday. I came to the library at 8 pm to study and finish up all my homework cuz I have a quiz and homework for my intermediate accounting class and an exam for my tax accounting. One after another. So I started by reading the tax accounting text.. I read some over the past few days.. so I didn't spend a lot of time yesterday. While I was just finishing the reading, my friend came online.. and since she doesn't come online a lot, I talked to her... until 11 pm when she went offline.
After 11 is when I started to feel the burden building up on me. I still had 3 homework questions (1 question takes up like 2 pages.. so it takes a lot of time to do it) and the quiz to study for.. at the same time, I soo wasn't ready for the exam yet. What can I do? Stomach growling too.. and have to work at freakin' 8 am till right before class.
Anyhow, I went to eat with two of my friends.. to satisfy my stomach first. Done eating and chatting at 1 am. Went to our own homes.. and I did the homework.. surprisingly, I can finish it by 2.45 am. I thought I wasn't gonna sleep yesterday. Today turned out to be better than what I expected.. I was expecting myself to be like a walking zombie today but I am actually more alive than that! The tests weren't too bad I hope.. we'll see the results.
Yeah, anyways, we talked about our problems while we were eating.. and our common fear was our future. I can't forecast my future.. we always joke that we have no future.. maybe that's true. I really have no idea what to do with the rest of my life. I mean, I am not so worried about being able to live through life.. you know like being able to finance your own life and stuff. I hope I won't have so much trouble in that. The problem though is, what's the meaning of my life if everyday all I do is work, work, save, and spend? It's like there is no ultimate goal.. nothing to look forward to. Does anyone ever feel the same way too?
all about her.
An imperfect person trying to be her best.
Wishes
Whatever it takes for everyone to be happy
Quotes
"You just gotta do it," she said. "You just gotta get out there and seek those things out for yourself. Life is definitely a roller-coaster, it's an adventure and it's just all about how you participate in it, if you choose to participate in it, and about going out there and having a good time and good things come to you."
"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that! "
