It's been awhile since I updated my blog that I don't even remember when I last did. But one thing I know for sure is that a lot has been going on since then.. mostly the not-so-good things. I've seen many "downs" in my life lately.. started with me feeling down emotionally.. suddenly feeling like there is nothing to look forward to and crap... then I fell SICK. I guess I got the virus from my friends. But I got sick not once, but twice in like less than 2 weeks. Can you imagine that? I only got the flu and a little throatache during the first time.. that happened a day or two before CNY.. I took some medicine and recovered within a day (amazing!). After my recovery, I forgot all about my sickness and continue on my routine.. which is coming home earliest at 1 am everyday.. getting less than 8 hours of sleep.. And, I guess that's how I got sick for the second time. This was worse. I was still in my bed on Sunday and didn't feel like getting off the bed.. all my body is aching.. until my friend called and asked me to go to the library. I reluctantly dragged myself off my bed but I didn't think I was gonna be that sick. So I went to the library, tried to do my tax accounting homework.. and that was when I felt something is not right. I felt COLD in the library (??) and I was still wearing my thick jacket.. and I can't think too.. I stayed there for 2 hours at most when I decided I couldn't take it anymore and drove home.
For those of you who have never been alone and sick at the same time, I'm telling you.. it doesn't feel good at all. Apart from being sick itself, you still have to do everything yourself.. it felt like nobody cares for you. You have to go to the drugstore by yourself, cook for yourself, and everything by yourself. But lucky my friends are kinda nice.. thanks ppl for being there esp. vck for calling to check on me, for offering your help.. to deliver food and stuff, ^^ although I didn't use any of your offer. Can I use your help now instead? haha..
Anywho.. I was supposed to work on Monday morning.. but I decided not to go.. I was actually 'fit' enough to get myself to work but I was worried that I'd get worse after that and many exams were waiting for me then. I called in sick and they said if I could get an MC, I wouldn't get a "cut" from work.. which was why I went to the health center later that afternoon to make a better use of my insurance... they will even reimburse your medicine fee. Surprisingly, I got a lot better the moment I stepped out of the health center and crazy me, I went directly to SRSC (sports center) with my friends.. but I only watched them swam.. K.. enough of describing my sick experience..
Moving on.. the "down" syndrome has also affected my GRADES. I really felt like crying when I just finished my intermediate accounting exam. From 4 questions, I only knew how to do 1 of them! Man, I was so bummed. I know I haven't been doing my homework.. but it's not that I don't wanna do it.. but I don't have time for it.. Yeah, I guess it's still my fault.. who cares if you have time or not? Homework still keeps flowing all over you. But the thing is, I HAVE studied for at least 6 hours for that test... that's quite a record for me... and when I was doing the exam.. my mind just went blank. Have no idea what to subtract/add for the cash flow.. how the journal entries for discontinued operations look like. The questions weren't exactly that hard and I was even more bummed when my friends said that they did ok for the exam... while me.. I felt like shit. It took me a couple of minutes after receiving the test back to gather my nerve to look at the score.. but it was better than I expect.. a lot better... I got a 68.. still failing.. but I thought I was gonna get 40% or sth. I just went to my teacher's office hour today.. to see if I still have chance to pull my grades up to a B or a C and he was quite confident that I can. So I don't have to drop the class (yeah!). I vowed to myself to do all the homework assignments after that exam.. but I didn't do the first HW he assigned cuz I have a tax accounting exam today. :( Again, I don't think I did so well on that. God bless me.. But fortunately, not only me is failing exams.. most of my friends too. Don't know whatever happen to us this semester. Hope we'll do better in the later part of the semester. Gotta study study and study.
I've been thinking to quit my job too.. cuz it's damn tiring to go to class right after you work. I couldn't concentrate in class, felt like sleeping. I talked to the manager to let me work less shifts.. but damn Joyce wouldn't let me. Actually if she allows me to work just 2 hours less every week, I'll be in a lot better shape already.. not asking for much. Guess I'll try to talk to her sometime soon again.. if she still wouldn't let me.. what do you think.. should I just quit the job? Leave me some feedback ok.. I gotta go for ABS meeting now.. gotta work hard to improve my resume. haha. Ciaoz.
It's been awhile since I updated my blog that I don't even remember when I last did. But one thing I know for sure is that a lot has been going on since then.. mostly the not-so-good things. I've seen many "downs" in my life lately.. started with me feeling down emotionally.. suddenly feeling like there is nothing to look forward to and crap... then I fell SICK. I guess I got the virus from my friends. But I got sick not once, but twice in like less than 2 weeks. Can you imagine that? I only got the flu and a little throatache during the first time.. that happened a day or two before CNY.. I took some medicine and recovered within a day (amazing!). After my recovery, I forgot all about my sickness and continue on my routine.. which is coming home earliest at 1 am everyday.. getting less than 8 hours of sleep.. And, I guess that's how I got sick for the second time. This was worse. I was still in my bed on Sunday and didn't feel like getting off the bed.. all my body is aching.. until my friend called and asked me to go to the library. I reluctantly dragged myself off my bed but I didn't think I was gonna be that sick. So I went to the library, tried to do my tax accounting homework.. and that was when I felt something is not right. I felt COLD in the library (??) and I was still wearing my thick jacket.. and I can't think too.. I stayed there for 2 hours at most when I decided I couldn't take it anymore and drove home.
For those of you who have never been alone and sick at the same time, I'm telling you.. it doesn't feel good at all. Apart from being sick itself, you still have to do everything yourself.. it felt like nobody cares for you. You have to go to the drugstore by yourself, cook for yourself, and everything by yourself. But lucky my friends are kinda nice.. thanks ppl for being there esp. vck for calling to check on me, for offering your help.. to deliver food and stuff, ^^ although I didn't use any of your offer. Can I use your help now instead? haha..
Anywho.. I was supposed to work on Monday morning.. but I decided not to go.. I was actually 'fit' enough to get myself to work but I was worried that I'd get worse after that and many exams were waiting for me then. I called in sick and they said if I could get an MC, I wouldn't get a "cut" from work.. which was why I went to the health center later that afternoon to make a better use of my insurance... they will even reimburse your medicine fee. Surprisingly, I got a lot better the moment I stepped out of the health center and crazy me, I went directly to SRSC (sports center) with my friends.. but I only watched them swam.. K.. enough of describing my sick experience..
Moving on.. the "down" syndrome has also affected my GRADES. I really felt like crying when I just finished my intermediate accounting exam. From 4 questions, I only knew how to do 1 of them! Man, I was so bummed. I know I haven't been doing my homework.. but it's not that I don't wanna do it.. but I don't have time for it.. Yeah, I guess it's still my fault.. who cares if you have time or not? Homework still keeps flowing all over you. But the thing is, I HAVE studied for at least 6 hours for that test... that's quite a record for me... and when I was doing the exam.. my mind just went blank. Have no idea what to subtract/add for the cash flow.. how the journal entries for discontinued operations look like. The questions weren't exactly that hard and I was even more bummed when my friends said that they did ok for the exam... while me.. I felt like shit. It took me a couple of minutes after receiving the test back to gather my nerve to look at the score.. but it was better than I expect.. a lot better... I got a 68.. still failing.. but I thought I was gonna get 40% or sth. I just went to my teacher's office hour today.. to see if I still have chance to pull my grades up to a B or a C and he was quite confident that I can. So I don't have to drop the class (yeah!). I vowed to myself to do all the homework assignments after that exam.. but I didn't do the first HW he assigned cuz I have a tax accounting exam today. :( Again, I don't think I did so well on that. God bless me.. But fortunately, not only me is failing exams.. most of my friends too. Don't know whatever happen to us this semester. Hope we'll do better in the later part of the semester. Gotta study study and study.
I've been thinking to quit my job too.. cuz it's damn tiring to go to class right after you work. I couldn't concentrate in class, felt like sleeping. I talked to the manager to let me work less shifts.. but damn Joyce wouldn't let me. Actually if she allows me to work just 2 hours less every week, I'll be in a lot better shape already.. not asking for much. Guess I'll try to talk to her sometime soon again.. if she still wouldn't let me.. what do you think.. should I just quit the job? Leave me some feedback ok.. I gotta go for ABS meeting now.. gotta work hard to improve my resume. haha. Ciaoz.
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"You just gotta do it," she said. "You just gotta get out there and seek those things out for yourself. Life is definitely a roller-coaster, it's an adventure and it's just all about how you participate in it, if you choose to participate in it, and about going out there and having a good time and good things come to you."
"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that! "
